I am procrastinating. I have two papers due tomorrrow (ah!) and I have not started. I cannot bring myself to do that oh-so-difficult first step of actually writing. Initially I was just so stressed that I was dissolving into shaky tears about the thought of writing. Obviously, that is not the ideal state to be writing a paper in. I sat on the floor of my apartment for 20 minutes crying like the big baby that I am wondering why I wasn’t just starting on my stupid paper. Well, it’s not stupid. I just have this awful habit of calling everything stupid when I’m frustrated. It’s a problem.
Anyway, since I am an adult and need to be productive, I decided a change of scenery was in order. Instead of moping on the floor with a box of cookies, I put on something besides running shorts and a tank top, packed up my lap
top and walked to the library. Luckily, I live so close to campus that I can do this relatively quickly. I wasn’t crazy about walking by myself in the dark, but I notified my boyfriend of where I was. That helped a bit.
Now in the nice quiet library, I am blogging instead of writing. But this is acceptable. I know that sometime soon I will feel calm enough to sit down and actually write. My paper will get finished. I may be a bit too sleepy tomorrow, but I will have completed my assignments.
I had two really awesome tutorials ready for you all too, but my stinky phone camera isn’t letting my access the images. Phooey. They involve crayons and TOMS (but not at the same time) and I think they’re awesome. So keep checking back, those will be up as soon as my camera cooperates!! I’m really excited to share them with you.
In the meantime, I suppose I’ll get to writing those papers…